Afraid of my creativitiy

So I've got some issues tapping into my creativity. I feel like there's this artistic genius who is trying to get out of my incredibly crowded brain, but is trapped by fear of rejection and failure. I've been told that I write beautifully, but when I try to write a story, I always end up feeling as if it's a juvenile undertaking- the characters are too flat, the dialogue is stilted, my descriptions are lacking in finesse. I don't know if I'm hampered by the fact that I've been teaching writing to people under the age of 18 for 10 years, or if I'm really incapable of writing a complete work of fiction. A few years ago I started using The Right to Write as a guide, but stopped for various reasons.

So now, I find myself in a position of not having a classroom in the fall and really questioning what I want to do with my time. After seeing Julie & Julia I realized that I had a lot in common with Julie: academically gifted, government employee, unhappy with her life's current direction. I also see myself at a turning point. After the past eight months since I started my mind/body transformation, I see myself as someone with more possibilities than I had thought previously. At the same time, I'm lacking direction- where do I go with these possibilities?

Yes I can sing, but will I make money at it? Probably not. Okay, so there's another thing- I'm too grounded in the "probably not". Maybe I'm too afraid to audition for something because I know there's no shortage of talented singers in the world, but there is a shortage of contracts to be had. I also know that I'm gifted in that I can sing, but my voice is not original. I can imitate Alanis or Sarah McLachlan, but my voice isn't unique like theirs. It's just a good, strong voice.

There are a few things I feel *really* good at: reading, typing, giving presentations, and planning trips to Walt Disney World ;) So, based on that, what do I do with my life? Join the crew at DVC?

It's such a weird feeling- maybe other artistic types can understand/explain... I feel like there's this excitement within me that's always on the verge of breaking out/breaking through/bubbling up, but never quite gets there. It's the potential that's never actualized and it's driving me nuts.